A bell rings and I hear it pouring inside my head

The rain comes and I hear the music pound instead

I am the captor and the captive of my emotions

The nature of the one who brings rain without tears.

 

Below me is a rainbow buried deep beneath the earth

It stops at nothing to dig itself far into the world’s berth

To it there are no boundaries, no wishes gone ungranted

For me I stand in awe, struck by its advances.

 

The gold it holds within its bow is for all who seek

I am but that seeker attempting to capture what has meaning deep

Is it prosperity, gold and riches? Wealth beyond compare?

Is it temporary, the stuff of witches, magic potion that goes nowhere?

 

In my dark and earnest yearnings it is freedom that I seek

To be beyond the struggle of everything I see

To be the meek who inherit the details of all there is to me.

 

I once thought I was blinded by the distraction of noisy earth

All around me was commotion trying hard to spin its worth

But as I glanced a long look further, deeper, stepping back

I could see it had no hold on me, the golden child, not the beggar being attacked.

 

The road is paved with rainbows, coloured coins, prosperity

I saw them shell out shillings when they saw that I could see

In the time when I wanted, when I worried and I waned

There was nothing that was granted, nothing more than pure disdain.

 

But in my deepest hours when I failed to look outside

Burning brightly from within me a candle flamed from my great heart

It look like God, the ever roaring light that never wanes

That constant steady companion, that predictable gracious friend.

 

There I sat crosslegged on a wooden floor both hard and not

Here I found the wax not melting from the candle’s bright soft spot

Inside me was a serpent, she was not the evil one

The unraveling of my mystery, the freedom had begun.

 

I saw the scenes of past-times-gone fly before my eyes

The serpent moved her coiled form, a memory shone above

I remembered all my life, it unfolded from the sky

The serpent loosened her great grip and I could see inside.

 

The skin she shed was mine, the errors my mistakes

The people that I hurt, well, they were only fake

My friends who came to join me on this journey here

The roles they played to teach me of my courage and my fear.

 

But no matter in the end now, the struggle coming forth

I stepped upon my upper heart, that platform of my throne

There were no harsh words spoken as I watched the memories go

The beginning with no ending, all just happening now.

 

The fear I felt vanished, into the ether it dispersed

The anxiety of wondering, lost, as it loaded on a hearse

I am the peace come slowly like a shooting final cannon

All that’s left is beauty, no shame nor honour to defend.

 

It’s over now

The war is won

I have begun

The snake stretched

Within my breast

Unwound the fears of yesteryear.

 

It’s a melody

That sounds like a rainbow pouring down

So loud in the silence is its sound

The freedom from the struggle

My Creed which spoke to me.

 

I am the rain

I am the sun

I am the snake

I am the gold.